It's FuckYou! Friday
The recipient of today's FuckYou! Friday is someone near and dear to my heart. Someone I have known my entire life, someone who is closer to me than anyone else in this whole wide world and knows me better than anybody. Today's FuckYou! is for me.
Yep, that's right, Fuck Me. Or if I can step out of character for this morning - Fuck you Billy! I was kinda hiding this week. From commenting, talking to people, and pretty much everything else, including work. I had a few people trying to cheer me up cuz they thought I was in a bad mood and needed it. What I told them I needed was a swift kick in the ass. I know what I need.
I've been lost, swimming in a sea of deadlines, bid dates and plans. I'm losing a crew member today as well. That only helps more. I come in here everyday and look at all the shit that needs done and just freeze. I don't know where to start; the bids, the financials (which really need done) the promotional work, oh, and let's not forget my real job - that needs done too. Losin it people, I was just effin losin it. Thought about just calling it quits. I could close it down today, lose a few deposits and after all the bills are paid still make a nice addition to my bank account. But WTF? That ain't me, I just need a swift kick in the ass and every little thing will be alright.
Hence, this FuckYou! is for me. I know what the hell I am doing, I know how to do it, I know why I'm doing it. All I gotta do is fucking do it. So Billy, get off your ass and get to work. Set a few goals, set a few of your own deadlines and make that damned list you're always talking about just so you can cross a few things off every day, even if inconsequential, just cross them off. You'll actually feel like you're accomplishing something which will lead to you actually accomplishing something. Never lose sight of the prize you stupid sonofabitch, you know why you did this, you know what you want out of it. You're NEVER gonna get it sitting around whining like a silly little girly man (no offense girls). Good things come to those who wait - Great things come to those who get off their ass and make something happen. That's you, remember that! Now get to fucking work.
We just may see the incarnation of Billy's Business Report Wedneday. Wednesday's are kinda boring, it may behoove me (ooh, cool word) to put myself out there. I think I may start posting the weeks bids, bookings and billings for the world to see. Y'all can kick my ass when nothing's happening. I've set some lofty goals for this little venture of mine but there's nobody around but me to see that I hit what I need to hit and call me on it when I don't. Y'all wanna play with me here? It's called "game theory". One is a lot more likely to accomplish their goals when they face total humiliation for not achieving them. Help a pirate out, I succeed, I throw a real party for all my blogger friends; I fail, y'all can laugh in my face... That way I'll succeed, I know how tough y'all can be.
Have a great fuckyou friday everybody, feel free to chime in and kick my ass, tell me to quit bitching and just get to it. You can even enjoy it, but only for today. Next week, I'll kick back.